trusting the process

I'm undergoing something I don't think even I can understand....

But I see the transformation that is taking place within me, slowly, steadily.. surely

And perhaps I wish it were different, that I acted more the way I wished I would act instead of the way the life within me wills me to act

But in the grand scheme of things it ain't the worst thing that could happen

Perhaps I just need to be patient, still.. gentle..

And trust that life is working through me, in me, as me..

That maybe I don't need to interfere in the process but just watch it without picking at it, just observe, notice...

Sigh. This is hard.

But if it wasn't, I don't know that I would feel stimulated enough to keep trying ;)

So...

Great changes are taking place, and they're not done yet... and it won't be done until you finally let go of the need for it to be done... and I'm sure that will happen at some point... until then... keep struggling... keep suffering...

for when you know how to suffer,

you suffer less.

🪷