progress!

wow, haven't written here in a while.

I have made some progress actually. i see that i was lamenting that I wasn't, now I can say that I am :)

i'm trying to be a stable person and i'm going to try to challenge myself to build and maintain new relationships on top of that now.

still a self-discovery journey but i think i am slowly doing the things that i really need to be doing and that's a good thing :)

My focus:

1. My routine/homeostasis

2. Developing and maintaining relationships

3. My needs & My interests

Things I am leaving behind:

1. My identity/self-image

2. Thrill-seeking/chasing

3. Future goals & career obsession

Instead I am going to allow the things that I will do in future to emerge from what I am focusing on currently :)

What a journey it's been, building myself and my life up from NOTHING well less than nothing, a lot of baggage.. releasing it all.. go me :D

optimistic about the future, let's hope nothing bad happens between now and then