s i l l y

[wildcaribou]

Okay... I think I'm properly in love... I don't know how else to really say this.. I don't even know if it's true.. I don't even know if this person is really true... but I ... think I'm... in love? I can never say for sure till I really get to know his true character inside out.... but... if he is who I hope he is then I don't see how I could ever feel this way towards annyone else ever again. Never felt this way before and probably will never feel this way again. Just waiting for the other shoe to drop, I'm sorta resigned to the fact that it will never work out... I know I can never be the recipient of anyone's love let alone something so perfect as a love like that... I already know he will never love me. He's of the normie population, his kind don't even look twice at mine, he probably has some air of thinking he's better than me... but I just can't help it... I think I love him... why does he make it so that everything else in my life all of a sudden makes sense... he's the key that unlocks me... the unlockable box... the unwinnable heart... I feel tamed when I'm with him... finally free to feel free while in his company... why does it feel like I could do anything for him, if I wanted to I might... i know i'm just another loser in his eyes but in mine hes something else entirely... I never expected falling in love to look this way... and there's no one to really talk about it with and no one who wont' really judge me or make up their own mind that indeed no one could ever love this girl...

oh why am i I am so silly... when will common sense finally catch up with me... when will i come to my senses... because right now i'm senseless...